Breaking the Silence: Part I

By June 9, 2015 , , , No Comments
I knew from medical school and residency that somewhere between 10-20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. Statistics don’t mean much until they’re paired with human experience.

Two and a half weeks ago, my baby no longer had a heartbeat. This was my first pregnancy, and  I was 9 weeks in. Shocking, devastating, utterly depressing. The strength of the emotions my husband and I have felt have no words to adequately describe them– how it felt that day in our OB’s office, and how it feels now, 2.5 weeks later.

I felt very strongly a few days ago that I need to blog about what has happened; many people don’t talk about the miscarriages that have so deeply affected them. I want to open up the discussion–not only as someone who has experienced miscarriage, but also as a medical doctor, a hopeful future mother, and a strong, tenacious woman.

Below you will find a video of the song I wrote about what happened to our baby. It’s called “Flicker”. It’s sad–writing Flicker has helped immensely with my grieving process. Feel free to comment below.